I barely slept last night thinking about my brother, his family situation, and my mother. Mama's memory of Papa's death is still fresh so she is finding a hard time accepting the truth that the second father to the family is now gone. I talked to her on the phone yesterday and she wants me there to help with the situation. How I wish I could just ride a jeepney and be there. To give her a hug and comfort her. It is very painful to me and I know that it is more painful to a mother. I grew up with my brother and it is so hard for me to accept the truth too. I am actually in denial, thinking that all of these are just dreams.. bad dreams.. Thank you all so much for your comforting words and for the prayers, I really need it right now. I know that God has plans and I am not questioning HIS will.